ive got a lot alot alot to learn.
ive decided to write in here again because it may be my only form of perpsective to come.
blah periods abounded throught winter/spring. shifts seems to be coming though.
having a sleepover this eve and am hiding downstairs so i can write out my insane thoughts.
mom is visiting.
ah-hah. issue number one.
living situation has become chaotic and not peaceful. beacuse of my angst, i think.

need a huge change.lift up from here mentally or someting.
some sort of shift in paradigm.
the things i worry about are lame.