as is so often with me in my lifetime..i have that free floating anxiety and fear of what comes next. like i want whatever is going to happen(bad or good) to HAPPEN already.
it feels overwhelming and is causing headaches and insomnia and fear based reactions and lack of concentration and hyper focus-all at once. i am crazy.
i feel like i have all this creative energy but no ability to channel it constantly or profitabley..either monetarily or emotionally or whatever..just spurts and stops and it is very very frustrating.
i am seeing TC today. hopefully we can start a plan to channel some of this.
paid all my bills and MAILED them..WOW.
i am astonishing myself.
my husband is working now.
amongst other things.went to df’s mtg last night co spoke-he was great.ch was there with his girl. she looks sweet. he ignored me…?funny boy.
watched boogie nights