its as if my life is a circle joke, like the “who’s on first” joke from when u were little. i get over ch..things are fine then things get nice and sweet and we both seem to be moving towards some sort of healthier kinder place and yesterday he treats me the way i always wanted.- just ramdom calls..asking me to lunch..sweet and attentive at the mtg infront of people..but then this am he freaks out and is super aggresive and mean and harsh and unreasonable to me…right at the point where my heart is wide open and i feel so much love …it hurt so much it was incredible. i could not sto[p crying and sobbing.which only made him angrier
it has been a brutal day i have been consumed with grief over dad and ch and lala and everthing else
i am at a loss