i think that this romantic thing..meaning relationship with someone withwhom you are also sexually active with…is fucking insane. there are too many rules we are taught about how things should go and how they ought to be..well intentioned as they may seem(especially when regarding feelings and standing up for oneself..) they fuck up in not letting nature takes its course..i expect someone to be a certain way because im told to expect this..but he is a unique human who has a way and thought life about him already that attracted me in the first place..so i fuck it all up by trying to get it to change.

or something.
i dont fucking know