dinner for bw’s bday at dominicks-nice group,was nice to be with such a varied group. wayne is very cool.
so is jo. spoke at al’s mtg. great. mi came and so did jb. grateful for that.
still have a nasty cough. spoke to jc, he is offering to fly me to mexico for a week next week. niiiccce. i have such awesome friends. wedding in sb next weekend. then maybe down to mexico?
could be fun.
my crush life is odd right now-there is still neigbour boy-but something weird is happeneing in me-i am not interested in anyone really and their seems to be a lot of ‘oppurtunity’ around. i might be getting addicted to this single-dom.just coming home to walk max and work. weird, i guess i still feel so worn out from my previous trysts and so untrusting-i find myself thinking the worst about all these guys- like when thay are being so nice to me i am sure that they must have some thing up their sleeve-or a gf in spain or something.i never thought i could become so
jaded and mistrusting- letting my guard down soo much this last time caused a bigger wound than i first realized still needs time to heal..i guess(?)
i am not angry or anything anymore- i am not even sad-just so aware of the realities of people’s abilities to let you in and come in to your life and then completely shut off.