so many thngs to think about. i was so excited to go see my cousin dj this eve.,then i called to find out what time and he said it was cancelled.fuck. i thought it would be a new fun place to meet cool people. i guess not. and my reg. thursday night date is off due to ab working a maxim party. maybe i’ll go to that.not. i can’t think of anything worse than being at a function tonight with all those scenesters. not into it at present. ykw emailed me the lamest email ever the other night. now, he doesn’t even respond to my emails. he waits about a week after i send one and then he writes a little prefunctionary note about nothing.what hurts the most and is still needling me is; he acts like we never connected the way we did. like i made it all up in my head.
i thought i’d found a real friend.he sux.i guessi have to forgive him ,though and myself in order to move on.
i only know i have to do this because of advising other people to do the same with their situations. i mean if i keep being set back by him and his lacks i am not a very good example to those i try to help or those that seek my advice am i?