hmm i feel scattered. a just called. she wanted her mail and rather than getting her to come inside, i just gave it to mf(who she was picking up)i’m over the whole deal of being judged and talked about. i let it all go.so there.
ajp sent me a very sweet email and we are having dinner at the restaurant w/lak and jq.i have to pretend that i don’t know they are doing ‘it’..could be funny-.wonder who else will be at the table.
thinking alot about ykw right now. just miss his humour and companionship. shit , i could almost cry , but not quite.
don’t feel obsessed with the ‘why’s’anymore..just a little sad at the outcome’s resulting absense.
it’s the time of day..just before sundown , when i would usually be getting ready to hangout w/him.i was always so pleased to see him
never failed. i just got happy being around him-i don’t know if i’ve ever had that before. that’s probably the reason that i am having so much difficulty getting over it.