slept till 2;30 pm today-short bursts of waking up- but felts sick i couldn”t move. reminds me of when i was living in mexico and i would wake up and feel hollow and beyond hungover-probably after i had done c or h or some crazy pills all the prevoius day/night. and today i feel the same way. 4 years w/no drugs/booze later, go figure.
i guess my body is really rundown from lack of excersice and smoking again and general poor eating habits.
so i went to trader joes and bought tons of comforty food: teas and juices and wheatfree raison bread and almondbutter and REAL butter(mmmn)and ginger snaps and tortilla chips and garlickysalsa.
i can’t believe how cheap it is there.compared to erewhon. it’s crazy
Some lady in the store was really nasty to me and almost made me cry. i think she was drunk or something. she yelled at me for openng one the fridge doors on her leg and told me to “fucking wakeup and get a life”(!!!!!)
i am so tired and sick that i took it soo personally.
all i said back was “whaat?’ and then “god bless you “
i don’t know where that came from, but at least i didn’t say “go fuck yourself crazy be-otch”
my instincts are getting kinder, i guess.
i think this sickness is tied in with my period, too. i have not felt this incapcitated by it in a long time.
it’s kinda nice having the sick excuse. feel justified in staying home etc.
have mini sunday blahs, though..mostly from sleeping so late. makes me feel like a drug addict.
also ..(while i am rambling like this..) i had an overwhelming urge to call ykw and yell at him , as i was inline at TJ’s.
i don’t know what i was going to say, but somthing GOOD-glad i didn’t though.