such drama around me this last 48 hours..but for once i am not involved..directly.
things were not what they seemed, or however the saying goes…not in this family group of friends of mine. there were some problems that came to a head this weekend.
sad and illuminating at the same time.

i had a great day today. despite the weekend feelings of being sad and anxiety ridden
last night ch came over was quiet and stoic yet as nice as he could be..and we just lay around and fell asleep.
i went into my room eventually and he left. sort of sums up the relationship.
i guess i am bummed cause i would like more FROM HIM in particular. not just in a relationship..i want to share this shit with ch…and it doesnt seem to be the way it goes .
ah well. i feel good though. i had an interesting life filled week.
e came home from jamaica tonight..seems like it went well